It's hard to experience self-awareness if you decide you don't want to work on it. You have a lot of power to decide what you're willing to do. You can move forward confidently or you can put up obstacles. The only person who chooses whether you grow and succeed is you.
Take some time to think of the areas in your life you'd like to improve and what would make you feel happy and balanced. Then it's up to you to determine where you want to start and what you're willing to do. The key in self-awareness is to live authentically and take action on the things that will help you live a genuine life.